I think “Don’t Forget Me” is one of my favourite songs of all time.
Also, check out http://www.last.fm/user/aiusepsi to see what I’ve been listening to lately.
It strikes me that I haven’t written about anything properly interesting for a while, which kinda sucks, but I actually haven’t been having that many profound thoughts…
Well, tell a lie. I have a far more serious predicament – I think interesting things then promptly forget them, or decide that I shouldn’t share them with the public at large. Alas, dear reader, although I cherish you dearly, some of my innermost thoughts I should not care to divulge, lest your brains explode from attempting to comprehend their significance. Either that or I would be ashamed of my thoughts, and it is hard to judge which of the alternatives is of greater magnitude.
Regardless, lately I’ve been discovering the meaning of life at the bottom of a bottle, which is to say my abilities at philosophising increase an order of magnitude (my, I’m loving repeating the same big words today) when I’m slightly on the drunk side. The other day at Sway I felt so close to having the meaning of everything. Last Friday I think I may, even for a second, have managed to grasp it fully; alas it has slipped through my fingers in its entirely, leaving only a sickly residue of truth.
It was too subtle to remember exactly, so I don’t think that right now I’d be able to do it justice in words. I guess what I realise most when I’m drunk and just coming down from the initial high is how COMPLETELY everything exists.
“She wants to know am I still a slut
I’ve got to take it on the otherside”
Awesome song. Anyhow, yes. It strikes me how completely life is happening, and how important every moment of it is. We exist, and some day we will not exist, which gives us a finite amount of moments to exist in. In these moments we have free will, and if you know you exist, and you will not exist, and you know you have free will, you are so terrifyingly free because then you have the responsibility to use those splinters of existence the best way you can!
Alas, the revelations I felt didn’t come to me in word-thoughts that I can write and make you know how I felt; there is a terrible barrier between us, that no man (or woman) may truly pierce; I am more than words and flesh, I am pictures and images and concepts so abstract and wonderful and beautiful that I wish I could share with you.
Anyway, I fear that may be enough stupidly baroque prose for tonight. It’s a disease, I know. I’m a pretentious fucker. Anyways, I’ve got my assessed problem sheet interview tomorrow, and it’s going to suck. Blurgh.
Gnite all,
Andy out.