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Paradoxical Freedom

The odd thing about suddenly finding oneself a man of leisure is now that the exams are over is that it rather takes the fire out of things.

When you have a day-to-day purpose, it gives a underlying meaning to which you can anchor the structure and events of your life. Remove that purpose, that skeleton, or holding-pin, and everything else is suddenly adrift. It’s pretty unnerving, all in all. Another way of saying the same thing is that procrastination seems a lot more fun when you have something to be procrastinating from.

Sartre had a pretty good grasp of this phenomenon, all in all. His point was that life is always unanchored, but we like to pretend that it isn’t. He called that “mauvais foi”, or “bad faith”. Honestly, I haven’t read any Sartre for ages because my copy of Nausea is… elsewhere, and Being and Nothingness is trapped in book backlog hell. He’s probably still my favourite, though.

Anyways, exams are over, which means suddenly I have to figure out what to do with my time all by myself. So far, that’s mostly meant staying in bed stupidly late, which is frankly just crap.

I have though had plenty of good times with friends, including a barbeque, drinks in Kensington Gardens, a Champagne and Suit/Dress party, and a trip to the Tate Modern (see http://facebook.com/asimpson for pictures). With any luck there will be more such happy occasions soon.

Guess I don’t actually have a lot to say about stuff right now. This is one of the more fundamental issues with Twitter – it acts rather like a release valve, letting go some of the pressure that would otherwise build up into a blog post. Ah well.

Plans:

  • Have more good times.
  • Play videogames.
  • Read books.
  • See bits of London I haven’t seen yet (like Marx’s grave)

Computing :(

I should go into college ’cause my computing report is due in today, and it’s not so much as finished as would be ideal. The last 4 days I literally haven’t got back to the house before 10pm, so I’m just so tired it isn’t even funny.

Or… I can just get the mapping of my home directory working properly, and work from here. Great success!

I wish I had other news or thoughts to report, but other than a musing on the fundamental belief of our society (it’s the rule of law, none of this freedom or democracy nonsense!) I haven’t even been thinking about anything halfway interesting, which is just kinda depressing. Although hopefully I’ll find time soon to curl up and read Sartre’s “Being and Nothingness”, which has been sitting on my shelf taunting me for a while now.

I get sad on the inside when I’m insufficiently pseudo-intellectual.

Hopefully there’ll be opportunity to go out sometime soon, feel like I haven’t done that forever.

Anyways, back to the grindstones…